An Incessant proselyte :

19 years have darted away like a flash.When i look back at my life , i realize my ideology and thoughts were changing continuously.

First instant :

At around 7-8 years of age , Being fascinated by cricket I moved around saying i want to become a big cricket player.I remember pestering dad for a new cricket bat every 3 months ( believed having a own bat increased chances of getting to bat early...lol... puerile thoughts ) and the thrashing i got for that.During those days i used to rush to the nearby ground carrying the bat as soon as i came from school.I was frenzy about that and dint care about the rebuke of the parents.It went on for a few years , the period in which i kept on losing 2-3 cricket bats , dad got pissed off , and the elder guys in the ground taunted frequently ..Slowly lost interest in the game ( had no formal coaching ) and at one stage after 2 years ,turned against the game saying " it is an idle game " players standing idle most of the time..

Second instant :

By then we had moved to other city scad of theaters.So , around 12-13 years of age i was a movie buff seeing even the most stupid movie ever released.May be because of that,I wanted to become a big hero ( No Comments pls ...) lured by the popularity and the money involved.Inspired by that started mimicking for some time.Only by 15 yrs mom made me realize it's just a fantasy and i must concentrate on studies from now on..This subdued the cine-star in me[ no one to support :( ] and then got deep into acads.Now I feel movies are just fantasies and have a bad impression about them...

Third instant :

After my 8th grade,people around me started the "what about the future " questions..It was a belief in my familythat becoming a Doctor was a "PRIDE" for the family.Motivated by those and other factors also that my secondary school BIO scores were high( that teacher would give easy marks) and maths was bit low.Due to this (may be) I went around saying i would become a big doctor one day.The day came where my mom wanted me to go too " IIT coaching " in one of the many coaching centres in Andhra.It had not interest to go there , so I pressed on becoming doctor and sat comfortably in home. Now after the 11th BIOLOGY seemed daunting and i found the subject like just cramming up all the stuffs and felt that Physics and Maths were now interesting as i could develop on those by self.By due course at the end of 11th lost all the interest in BIO and turned towards engg( faced a difficult time convincing mom !)My board marks showed it clear(BIO was the lowest) . And eventually ended up with an Engg seat.Still ppl ask what happened to your 'Doctor ' dream..[:(]

The most recent :

Very recently during this holidays , I underwent a major transformation. About my future...... Till I came out of India , i was pissed off with the education system there and the avenues for the core , I had decided to go ahead with Management side.Coming here , seeing all the support for core subjects revived the engineer in me.Now planning to go ahead with MS...


Now, i realize the continuous change in my thought process , and the fickle nature of my mind.
Am i the only person experiencing this change ???????????????

Smile Please !

I don't know how many of us observe this in our social environment.It didn't strike to me conspicuously when in India.After being in Singapore for the past one month ,I could feel one big difference in the people ,

"The smile ".

I could realize the difference a small smile could make in our day to day life.It can revitalize the dormant energy lying in us.Its like a relaxing poultice for a vapid mind.

Right from the morning i could see smiling faces all around.Starting from the layman i cross over during my walk to the bus stop, bus driver, the co-passenger seated next and many more.

The biggest of all smiles i get influenced is the lab officer in my workplace , the smile which he greets in the morning is always refreshing .Each and every time when i ask him for any help he readily acknowledges with a lavish smile. Cha , every time i am haunted with bitter memories of the philistine lab assistants and the pedantic lab teachers ,i face in the normal lab classes in NITT.Even for a small thing like a old resistor or a half burnt and ramshackle breadboard , had to bear with the harsh words ,losing all the interest in doing the experiment.Imagine the change that a small cordial smile from either of them would make in us.More importantly , most of the faculty in NITT , respond to us gruffly ,as if they were GODs in their fields and also we were some menial people.This is demoralizing as a student losing all the interest in studies.I regained the penchant for studies only after coming here , seeing how cordial the profs are ,and the kindness of the supporting staff.

In India , i remember being greeted with a scorn , in almost all the public utility places(like passports , RTO , Bus Conductors , Watchman,hospitals ) more importantly in the police stations(for god sake, i hav not been there.But heard of the embarrassment faced by a common man there). This situation is never encountered anywhere in Singapore(rather all the developed nations)

Is this because people are happier here than in our country ?A small interaction shows though people here have their own problems , they don't want them to affect others.

Is that our people do not want others develop over them , or want to emphasize that they are burdened with over work ,etc,etc..??

Can smile can revive the interest in everyone's work, and like the butterfly effect can this lead to the overall development of the country. I am ponderingover it for a long time

So,Smile Please

Being a Single Child

Being a single chid of the parents :
I have heard people often say " You are lucky , you are the only child of your parents".Is it so ?
The general understanding is the single child gets more attention from the parents and their entire earning is only for him/her. Moreover he gets undivided love and affection from them.Does this alone makes him lucky ?

There is an other side too :
Everything is fine until he is in home under the cover of parents who take every care for his welfare.But the problems start when he comes out to the society to face the world all alone.
He has never felt brotherhood and he has grown up alone ,without learning adjusting in small things to others and believes his thoughts are right always and whatever he desires has to be acquired.In times when things does not go his way ,he suffers from depression.Initially he suffers very much before coming in terms with the reality.

There is one more , too much of affection(anbu thollai) .Sometimes its becaue of being only child one is forced by affection to stay along with parents and loses all the chances of exploring this vast world and result : misses all the required exposure.

Moreover , if the previous generation is also single child ,he loses all important relatives.(Sometimes relatives do play important role ..)

Its not always lucky to be a single child , there is the other side of the coin too.

PS:This is not the case everywhere , there may be few exceptions.

Support In Spore

The infrastructure here is mind blowing .. We cant even compare it to our premier insti's.. It was yesterday afternoon when our professor sent two students to meet us.They were just ninth grade students.They were getting support from the NUS through some Science Devp program.Though he was bit nervous to us , he had done some imageprocessing in matlab.He had used two cameras to capture the live images of human, and used it to predict the stability of a person.He was explaining all the Kd,Kp etc that we read atleast only in the second yr of UG. I couldnt believe that a 9th grader was doing all this in this place , all the equipments and the guidance was provided by the varsity.See the support one gets if he has interest alone.

And more than that , prof took us to the singapore polytechnic; the campus by itself didnt give a feel it was a poly(like ours);and moreover most of the rooms were airconditioned ( too much for an polytechnic ).The students there were more better..A guy (Mingdo) there was too ambitious ; he planned to develop a serpentine robot and the funding for that was a whooping 15000 singapore dollar..God !!! we get only a paltry5k for even our FYP. I couldnt digest this for long time until i realized that we were living in INDIA , with so much problems to concentrate upo , this was not feasible !!!

First day in Spore - The Spaghetti,Miniskirt and THE NUS

From the moment i landed in the airport, I was amazed at the the neatness of the place
I expected the magnificent buildings and perfect roads,but what amazed me was the way in which the people here followed the rules.
I started in pursuit of NUS from my cousin's place.It was a long travel and i caught a subway(MRT) for the first part of the journey.
In MRT there was no driver and the automatic ticket generators were the first glimpses of technology put into use for public.The machine could recogonize all the different coins n even the currency.Even though the crowd was big( greater than our chennai trains) everyone moved on silently without any fuss.I had to take a bus to the engineering drive in the huge campus ( NITT cant even be compared) .
There was no bus available that time and sitting in the bus stop, time raced off as mini skirt gulz walk past frequently.
Somehow got a bus to engineering drive on the way, the tennis courts and the well maintained grounds and not the least the buildings, they were simply mindblowing.
As soon as i got down , an incident made stomachs burn!! One was waiting in bus stop and one got down from the bus and started k****.. Pavam i couldn't bear with it.
Inside the buildings were even better,lifts at each turn finally reached my destination The Control And Simulation lab. MSK showed the workin of the HUMANOID, my first experience with them.
In the lab, saw that the experiments B.Tech ppl were doing as their regular labs were more than what we would do as our FYP..
Next the usual thing , i found a computer with high speed internet(15Mbps) started chattin and vetti putting..
Some time passed off, stomach tickled..In the canteen chinese and western cuisine was the cheaper, not knowing what to order,I chose some random one.. It was a Sphagetti meal(!!!!). The person in the counter was Chinese,so it took a hell a lot of time trying to get him take the order .. It was some 2.80$ and i gave him a 50$ currency..
He got to the point askin when did i come to spore,and then he started giving ideas of NUS..I told him i was from India,Chennai thinking he wud know the place easily..He started askin " Is Madras near that one, It is a very good place " (He knew only that name in India)..It took my entire energy to make him understand..
At last he gave the meal,there were arbid stuff on the plate,I was confused as which one to use spoon and which one fork and knife..and the taste was too horrible,I had to finsh it off at least for the money i paid..(no more unknown food)..
After meet the prof(again japnese).. freaked out into the hostels..Again they were too good,They were like big apartments , entry allowed only with a wireless transponder..
In the late evening we sneaked in to the LITTLE INDIA,everything looked Indian except the cost of items.....But one thing was too much,the waiter got our order on a PDA , it was read in the kitchen through wi-fi and some other guy gave our dishes, this was excess use of tech...
AH!!Got the first taste of Singapore,whatever i could get was the MiniSkirt ladies everywhere and the outstandin respect for the rulez ..