An Incessant proselyte :

19 years have darted away like a flash.When i look back at my life , i realize my ideology and thoughts were changing continuously.

First instant :

At around 7-8 years of age , Being fascinated by cricket I moved around saying i want to become a big cricket player.I remember pestering dad for a new cricket bat every 3 months ( believed having a own bat increased chances of getting to bat early...lol... puerile thoughts ) and the thrashing i got for that.During those days i used to rush to the nearby ground carrying the bat as soon as i came from school.I was frenzy about that and dint care about the rebuke of the parents.It went on for a few years , the period in which i kept on losing 2-3 cricket bats , dad got pissed off , and the elder guys in the ground taunted frequently ..Slowly lost interest in the game ( had no formal coaching ) and at one stage after 2 years ,turned against the game saying " it is an idle game " players standing idle most of the time..

Second instant :

By then we had moved to other city scad of theaters.So , around 12-13 years of age i was a movie buff seeing even the most stupid movie ever released.May be because of that,I wanted to become a big hero ( No Comments pls ...) lured by the popularity and the money involved.Inspired by that started mimicking for some time.Only by 15 yrs mom made me realize it's just a fantasy and i must concentrate on studies from now on..This subdued the cine-star in me[ no one to support :( ] and then got deep into acads.Now I feel movies are just fantasies and have a bad impression about them...

Third instant :

After my 8th grade,people around me started the "what about the future " questions..It was a belief in my familythat becoming a Doctor was a "PRIDE" for the family.Motivated by those and other factors also that my secondary school BIO scores were high( that teacher would give easy marks) and maths was bit low.Due to this (may be) I went around saying i would become a big doctor one day.The day came where my mom wanted me to go too " IIT coaching " in one of the many coaching centres in Andhra.It had not interest to go there , so I pressed on becoming doctor and sat comfortably in home. Now after the 11th BIOLOGY seemed daunting and i found the subject like just cramming up all the stuffs and felt that Physics and Maths were now interesting as i could develop on those by self.By due course at the end of 11th lost all the interest in BIO and turned towards engg( faced a difficult time convincing mom !)My board marks showed it clear(BIO was the lowest) . And eventually ended up with an Engg seat.Still ppl ask what happened to your 'Doctor ' dream..[:(]

The most recent :

Very recently during this holidays , I underwent a major transformation. About my future...... Till I came out of India , i was pissed off with the education system there and the avenues for the core , I had decided to go ahead with Management side.Coming here , seeing all the support for core subjects revived the engineer in me.Now planning to go ahead with MS...


Now, i realize the continuous change in my thought process , and the fickle nature of my mind.
Am i the only person experiencing this change ???????????????

Smile Please !

I don't know how many of us observe this in our social environment.It didn't strike to me conspicuously when in India.After being in Singapore for the past one month ,I could feel one big difference in the people ,

"The smile ".

I could realize the difference a small smile could make in our day to day life.It can revitalize the dormant energy lying in us.Its like a relaxing poultice for a vapid mind.

Right from the morning i could see smiling faces all around.Starting from the layman i cross over during my walk to the bus stop, bus driver, the co-passenger seated next and many more.

The biggest of all smiles i get influenced is the lab officer in my workplace , the smile which he greets in the morning is always refreshing .Each and every time when i ask him for any help he readily acknowledges with a lavish smile. Cha , every time i am haunted with bitter memories of the philistine lab assistants and the pedantic lab teachers ,i face in the normal lab classes in NITT.Even for a small thing like a old resistor or a half burnt and ramshackle breadboard , had to bear with the harsh words ,losing all the interest in doing the experiment.Imagine the change that a small cordial smile from either of them would make in us.More importantly , most of the faculty in NITT , respond to us gruffly ,as if they were GODs in their fields and also we were some menial people.This is demoralizing as a student losing all the interest in studies.I regained the penchant for studies only after coming here , seeing how cordial the profs are ,and the kindness of the supporting staff.

In India , i remember being greeted with a scorn , in almost all the public utility places(like passports , RTO , Bus Conductors , Watchman,hospitals ) more importantly in the police stations(for god sake, i hav not been there.But heard of the embarrassment faced by a common man there). This situation is never encountered anywhere in Singapore(rather all the developed nations)

Is this because people are happier here than in our country ?A small interaction shows though people here have their own problems , they don't want them to affect others.

Is that our people do not want others develop over them , or want to emphasize that they are burdened with over work ,etc,etc..??

Can smile can revive the interest in everyone's work, and like the butterfly effect can this lead to the overall development of the country. I am ponderingover it for a long time

So,Smile Please